Ok, I admit it. I’ve had a shocking weekend and an ever worse start to my week. I don’t even know why. Actually, those were my first thoughts, but I do know why after taking some time out (read on to find out). Right now, I just experience this dark somber mood.
The reason I’m writing about this is to show you, that we all struggle with motivation, me included. While I’m generally happy, upbeat and full of passion, I also have my bad days. Normally this isn’t a big issue, however, trouble is when those bad days stack up like right now.
If you run your own business like me, then having a batch of bad days isn’t a good thing at all, since you will ultimately sabotage yourself.
Instead of using the spare time I have available to move my business to the next level, I’m moping around feeling sorry for myself.
So, the question is, what should you do when this happens to you?
To be honest, I don’t know. We are all different. What might work for me might not work for you at all.
In the interest of possibilities however, it might help you if I just write about what I do in those moments.
Acknowledge my true feelings
First off I am being honest with myself and acknowledge my feelings. I tried to dismiss them in the past, which only lead to long spells of depression.
If you experience roadblocks, then it might be a good time to take stock of your life and think about possible reasons why you might feel like that in the first place.
With a bit of digging and reflection, you will soon see what holds you back.
Analyze possible causes
Once I know why I’m feeling down, I normally try to find a solution for the future. While I can’t change the present, I can learn from it and improve on my short comings in the future.
I know for a fact, that one of the reasons I’m felling depressed right now is because some of my work has dried up. In the past 6 months I’ve had a really great run and I guess this is the first time ever since I’ve gone full time that I’m not fully booked.
Until now, I never even had to find work. It found me instead and I guess I got too comfortable. I was thinking that this lucky stream might hold on forever, all the while knowing deep down that it won’t. Even with a positive attitude.
Freelance writing is like a roller coaster and even though I didn’t have to experience this until now, I had to find out eventually.
The trouble is, how do you go about finding more work, when you are fully booked in the first place?
Two of my clients have recently pulled back (which is to be expected at some stages in our line of work) and now I’m sitting here, wondering, where the next job is coming from. I still have plenty of work, mind you. But, I’m not fully booked at present. (Hint hint ) I feel comfortable in the knowledge that I’m fully booked. It’s like an aphrodisiac to my work. Seeing that available space makes me shudder and thinking the worst things to be honest. Maybe it is silly, but that is how I feel right now.
Naturally, I understand that I have to pull my finger out and go hunting if I want to fill my agenda right now, but to be honest I’m also toying with the idea on riding this low wave and invest the available time into my niches instead.
Deciding what to do
I guess the indecision about what is right for me in this scenario is REALLY my problem right now. From a logical viewpoint it only makes sense to build my niches heavily while I can. But my inner child is frightened to lose the momentum of my freelance writing business and with that the great income I’ve enjoyed over the last few months.
Taking time to mourn
If I’m totally honest with myself, then I have to say it makes more long term business sense to build my niches, since otherwise they will never eventuate to much, which means – no residual income.
So there, that is the answer! I just gave it to myself.
To get to this point I had to take time to weigh the options against each other. I know that I could pick up freelance writing work tomorrow if I really wanted to, so this will never be an issue.
But to build my niches does take time and I have to build them correctly. Plus, in those moments I’m the perfect target to get sidetracked with other ideas too. I spent the whole day yesterday wasting time by pursuing something totally new, instead of getting on with my existing work.
Talking about wasting time!
In those moments I also tend to spend more time doing craft, reading or even watching TV. It is important for me to reflect and take the time to think about what I really want. Doing this will also help me to set priorities like in this case. Now that I have made up my mind I can move ahead and travel on the straight road again.
Times like these are also a good to take stock about my long term goals, since goals can change all the time.
Using inspiration to start again
Usually when I have my dark days (luckily they are far and few these days), I need some time. After some reflection and the usual feeling sorry for myself intermezzo I pull myself back together again and it is business as usual.
I realize there is worse
I realize that many people are a lot worse off than me right now. I really have nothing to worry about so why be depressed at all. In reality, it isn’t that easy. Depression strikes at the most unusual times and there is nothing we can do except deal with it.
That is exactly what I’m doing. Time to pull my finger out.
Thanks for listening to my unusual self centered story.